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it's rather strange how so much can change in a year. And i start this with a question:

If the moon shines and there is nobody alive to see it - Is it still beautiful, is my question.

• It must be, because otherwise, how could beautiful things exist?
  • You exist.

And no, the funny thing is, this isn't the same "You" as it was 10, 12, or even 24 months ago. Because unlike all the others You're here to stay.
How do I even begin to describe this. You're my best friend. When I look into your eyes I feel worthwhile, when I'm by your side, I feel safe, beautiful even. Your beautiful and perfect in every way. I know this isn't the puppy love from before, but I don't know if this is true love. Is true love suppose to make you feel so overwhelmed with joy that you feel as though you can do a million backflips? Is it suppose to make you feel like the whole world is crashing down sometimes? That it doesn't matter if everyone else in the world hated me, but if you, and you only loved me, I would be happy.

And I can wait, because you're absolutely, positively, without a doubt,

worth it. <3

Suddenly

Well, I don't get it. How could the reason why i'm living change so swiftly? so suddnely? but whatever. I don't care. Because, Nathan led me away from Alex, I dont have to hurt anymore. He doesnt come with a requirement of tears.

And Alex? I'm DONE crying for you.

HAHA

This is what happens when you mess with my heart.

Tick Tock

Step. Step. Step. Step. Seconds tick by, life moves on. No one ever takes a chance to look back because no one wants to remember-but me. I miss you. I miss your perfection, did i ever tell you that you're sorta...kinda...a bit.....really beautiful? I guess I should really thank you huh? Because I guess if you weren't there I wouldn't want to remember. but i do. and i will.

You gave me that chance. So, uh, thanks.

Flying over Washington

The best part about flying over clouds, is you swear you can almost see heaven from up there, but sadly this-this is the closest we ever will get.

Tell Me

A terrified teenage boy, ran up to me asking, "Where am I?"

"Why, you're in WA." I replied.

He just shook his head, wide eyes growing wider with fear every second. "No, WHERE am I?!"

I sighed...it's not like I haven't asked myself this question hundreds of times each day. "How the hell should I know, if you don't know yourself?"

His eyes started growing desperate with tears. "Why won't you tell me??"

I thought slowly and carefully, each word being edited by my heart. Then finally whispered, "...That's not the question. The question is, why can't YOU tell ME?"

You Know...

It's so weird how I'm at my locker and then I hear this tiny voice out of the whole crowd that's near me and think "Oh, It's Alex". I don't have to turn around to know it's you, I can recognize your voice out of a thousand.

Because....Because....I love you.